"to be happy we must not be too concerned with others"
today sucks big time, really. i just feel so useless/hopeless right now, i feel like punching my face.. noo.. hit my head against the wall really hard.
how can i fucking lost my knives set? really ridiculous, i remembered i put it inside my locker right after my practical test on monday. hey asshole stealer mother of all slut, ya really clever to unlock my pad and steal my knives set, ransacked my whole locker, why didn't you take along my shoes with you? or maybe my apron? save you alot!
aaahhh, i'm so fucking pissed now, how on earth i'm gonna tell my parents i lost a freaking 250 bucks knives set?! where can i get the money? why now? why when i'm fucking broke? why when i'm only left with 40 bucks on my wallet? seriously, this is really unfair!
and you sucker half girl half boy, because you're my mentor, that's why i'm giving you my full respect, don't let me be the old wafi because it's gonna be nasty.
special to christina, really. (i know you'll be reading this) though we barely know each other for 4 weeks now, you really helped me a lot, and it's really a lot. thank you so much for being there, like always there in school for me.. just 4 weeks, but you know me inside out.. i'm sorry to burden you with all my fucking problems/rants/complaint.. a friend like you is really hard to get, and i swear i'm going to treasure this friendship. omg. sound so emo. but true.. i'm really touched, today, by you.. words can't describe..
it feels great to meet you just now though we barely spent 2 hours together after 2 week of not meeting each other. thanks a zillion because it's always been you who will pull me up and put me on track.. those encouragements from you, is really what i need right now.. thank you, because you have been such a dear.. i know you could be there when i'm at my weakest point. this may sound cliche, but hey "stay close, don't go" i can't afford to lose someone like you. i don't want another "megan situation story." once again, thank you.
not forgetting my zinnia cai. thanks babe for being my listening ear.
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on a brighter note, finally get my hands on the pedro formal shoes. gonna wear it out for tomorrow presentation.
